19,5 of 20 in Krems

Written on Friday during my visit to the University in Krems:

Wow, what an experience. Time for Self Evaluation test at Danube University in Krems, Austria. Me… studying at the university. Not many people would have guessed that. Even I would have called it craziness if you would’ve asked me moths ago. Or even a week ago. And yet, here I am. It never felt more appealing to become a student. I can’t really explain why. Perhaps it’s the universe telling me that this is the right time. Or maybe I just found something really interesting. And to work internationally I need that title. Don’t I?

There were two phases of the Self Evaluation test. English and Economics and Maths. The English test was very difficult, but I think I made it ok. The Economy and Mathematics test was… empty when I handed it in. Except for a few questions where I guessed the answer. Slightly embarrassing, but at the same time there was nothing I could’ve done to change it. Somehow my brain is boiling with excitement. I recognized all the math tasks in the test, I’ve done them before. You know, even I miraculously managed to pass the Mathematics C course in Gymnasiet in Sweden. I just have to awaken the knowledge… It’s in there somewhere. I have to have a look in my old maths books in Sweden. I’m already looking forward to it. The typical task from the test: You pick random balls out of a urn, how high is the probability that the first one is this colour and the second one that colour. No fucking clue actually… And without a calculator I wouldn’t even have time to start trying it. I have to play more Schnappsen with Opa so I learn how to count faster. I really do want to try it! I want to. I want to learn.

A woman is now entering the room with the English test. 19,5 out of 20 points. They’re telling me that’s the highest score they ever had. A small comfort… Keynes, ROI, The invisible hand on the other hand… What is that anyway? Still no idea. But I want to know.

Snow animals in Haslau

Jesus is watching over the snow animals which Andrea, Rupi and me made in Haslau, Birkfeld yesterday. Perfect snow man snow! They got a bit dirty from the mud underneath the snow and my gloves got soaking wet. Perfect childhood memories. The only thing missing was the hot choclate burning your lips as the milk skin gets stuck on your tongue. Yuck!  I’d forgotten how difficult it is to think three dimensional when you create the shapes of something in snow… I want more snow so we can build more snow men!

The award almost fell over

Something else I reflected on, hopefully it doesn’t symbolize how important the award for Gründerin des Jahres really is… the trophy for the winner was so small and light weighted that it almost fell over when somebody happened to touch the table where it was standing… Trophies should be big and important… it should symbolise how the award winner should feel. Pretty, humble and surprisingly small is the wrong way to go.

Immature gender equality discussion

Friday this week I attended the award ceremony for Gründerin des Jahres 2008 here in Styria, Austria. Gründerin des Jahres is an award for women who recently founded a successful company. Renate Willfort, the CEO of Dresscode21, the company where I work was nominated, hence my attendance.

During the ceremony some local politicians where interviewed about why this award is so important. They all repeated the mouldy mantra of how different men and women are and how important it is to have companies owned and run by women because they bring something different into business, something men aren’t capable of doing/thinking/bringing in. This is of course old stuff, which I hear a lot more often in Austria than in Sweden. (Even though the regional meeting for entrepreneurial women in Växjö, Sweden last Monday was embarrassingly close. Too much pink and self-pity is never particularly attractive or encouraging.)

No, what really made me react was something one of the local politicians said. She firmly believed that women have less pay because women have bad self-confidence. Saying this in front of any group of people is embarrassing. But saying this in front of a group of a hard working self-employed women waiting to accept an award is simply humiliating. I find it hard to believe that every one of the women in the room had worse self-confidence then the men sitting next to them. Saying this, the politician indirectly also implied that men have better pay because they all swell with self-confidence. I know this is not true.

The solution the politician offered for raising women’s salaries was an encouragement that we should quit the lowest paid ones and get other occupations. She meant we should stop being nurses, kindergarten teachers and taking care of elderly people. I don’t think she knew what she was saying. Will that ever happen? Or perhaps she’s encouraging revolution. When no women do this work – men has to do it. Interesting!

My point is: People are different. My experience is that two women, often turn out to be more different than a man and a women. There are so many layers of a person; ethnicity, class, experiences, memories, political and sexual preferences, movie taste etc. Stopping at the physical appearance and hormone level is plainly immature. What reproduces the pattern of men and women having different levels of pay is a glitch in the system. It’s a pattern from the 20th century, which we accept over and over again. It’s built on our belief that women and men are very different and therefore we should have different pay. This is not an individual problem, it’s a system problem, which is easy to solve by staying updated with reality and educated within gender equality issues. Having had up to 30 employees and lots of freelancers I know how easy it is to fall into patterns and give guys better pay then gals. Time to break the pattern! Make strategies and make them happen.